Depress? i hve a lock jaw?

my mom nd i go to d dentist, the price 4 me to get cured is mre expensive so my mom decided 4 me to get cured in our country in vacation cuz its more affrdable. im so depres i masaged myself widout .well im thingking. i am so worried i really wish i didnt masage myself i mean wat am i thingking pls. help me im so deprres right now .i think i masage my chin not my jaw . now smetmes my body is twitching my head really hurts there is heavy part on my chest nd in my neck too also i think my spinal chord hurts too nd smetmes wen the sound is loud my ear really hurts.and now when i walk my feet get tired so easily lyk walking 4 an hour i will get tired so easily my hands to its lyk my hand gets tired so easiy too. pls. help me i'm only 14 years old. i dnt wnt to hve aya's sickness the one in the one litre of tears.